I FUCKING LOVE LIFE. It's so precious to me. I can't even tell any of you how precious. I love my family and my girlfriend, and my job. I love my job in the abstract. I love the good work that I know I could do, if they ever fucking hire any support for me. I love life. I love life so much. I have to take a moment to reaffirm all of this, because for a moment today - a brief moment, my mind wandered and I suddenly realized I was considering suicide. I have never, ever before ever done that, as far as I know. Not really.
Now, calm down. I wasn't planning anything. It wasn't an urge, really. It was more a consideration. An abstract, dispassionate consideration. But that's the GATEWAY, though, RIGHT?! Back me up on that! First you're all "oh, let's consider this in the abstract" and then next, you're registering for a skydiving class. And I have to say, FUCK THAT NOISE!! I will NEVER commit suicide! NEVAH!!! What, over a JOB??!!! FUCK that! Quit the JOB first, don't quit LIFE. But anyway, I can't quit or kill myself yet, because I've got way too much shit I have to finish first. I'm not leaving people in the lurch. That's not my style.
So anyway, I just wanted to put that out there. So you know. If my body turns up, I was FUCKING MURDERED!!!!!!!!!
But my girlfriend didn't do it.
Now, calm down. I wasn't planning anything. It wasn't an urge, really. It was more a consideration. An abstract, dispassionate consideration. But that's the GATEWAY, though, RIGHT?! Back me up on that! First you're all "oh, let's consider this in the abstract" and then next, you're registering for a skydiving class. And I have to say, FUCK THAT NOISE!! I will NEVER commit suicide! NEVAH!!! What, over a JOB??!!! FUCK that! Quit the JOB first, don't quit LIFE. But anyway, I can't quit or kill myself yet, because I've got way too much shit I have to finish first. I'm not leaving people in the lurch. That's not my style.
So anyway, I just wanted to put that out there. So you know. If my body turns up, I was FUCKING MURDERED!!!!!!!!!
But my girlfriend didn't do it.
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