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Thursday, August 20, 2009

People resent you for no reason.

People resent you for no reason. You do your best to be positive, and you try hard to be fair to everybody - even though sometimes it seems to you that other people don't even particularly try at all - you think hard about anything that strikes you as potentially fucked-up, about situations coming down the pike and how to deal with them. Anything that someone confronts you with, you try to see their side and figure out why. You concern yourself deeply with how to deal with life. How to deal with it all, the best way you can.

You try to be warm and funny and positive with people, you try to be friendly and fun - shit, no, you don't TRY. You don't try. That's just part of who you are. It's how you want to be. It's how you hope to stay. How you hope to keep yourself, for your whole life if you can: somebody who does their best to be good to people. Not some paragon. Just basically a good person, who tries to engage with others as best you can, who is honest and true, who tries to not be an asshole.

But people don't care. They turn you into something you aren't, and blame you for not being that. They come in building resentments and federal cases on shit you never even did do, never said. Never thought, never felt! Just a load of bullshit motives they assign to you and accuse you of, or assign to you and accuse you of falling short.

HA!! Actually, not really! I was just kidding ya. Nobody does that to you. But I had you for a second, huh? Pretty depressing and scary if that were the case!

But really, why would anybody do all that shit, what's it gonna get 'em? Some life for a loser!

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