I'd just finished shaving, combing my hair, brushing my teeth, I'd gotten my clothes on and me all neat, I was looking into the mirror, giving myself that intense, psyched-up-for-the-day glare of approval, as usual, but then walking out of the frame - looking myself right in the eyes - I suddenly gave myself the finger!
I don't know how to interpret it!
On one level, I did it with a kind of a surge of badass bravado and defiance welling up in one impulsive act, but on the other hand, I was looking right into my own eyes as I did so, and I have to say, what I read there seemed...hostile.
Dog gone it. Like I needed this today! I have a huge day today - some major negotiations to close, I need to be on board and at one with me of all people! And to start off like this, on the wrong foot with myself - this is about the last thing I need.
Have to leave all that to sort out later I guess. Nothing for it. Nothing to do now but deep breath and plunge.
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You are so toally insane...which is why I'm a follower!
Maybe some deep part of you suspected you might be giving someone else the finger today, and wanted to practice it in the mirror to make sure it looked okay.
@Eva: "Don't rush to judgment on something like that, until all the facts are in." - Martin Blank
Man. I have to watch that movie again! You have to picture me saying it exactly how John Cusack says it.
@Adelaide: I think you nailed it? My subconscious seems to have been planning ahead. The very first conference call of the day - I did indeed give the guy the finger! Eerie.
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